Are There Jews Among My Enemies? I Think So. Trad Catholics Too.

I am a writer. I spend hours each day, sometimes each night, before a computer to find things to react to and to write about. And then some hours writing and researching or calculating, and then writing. If I were writing a realistic novel, I would still need some research for the setting or plot points. While engaged in Chronicle of Susan Pevensie, I made sure to find a peppermint that's no longer produced. If I tried a high fantasy, with no realistic setting, I'd need to do things like keeping track of the phases of the moon, as Tolkien did. But as an essayist, I need research for every piece of 700 words. And it is often random.

I have also since c. 1 month after October 7th 2023 had a lice infestation in my scalp.*

I have also had quite a lot of hustle last month, given the place where I keep my stuff was needed to shoot film footage.

I have also, each day, too many people who pass, just say hello or "how are you?" and don't allow me to ignore them, but neither allow me a decent conversation. This makes it mentally painful or at least awkward to stay around too long, while awake and not engaged in eating or sewing.

There are people who harass me about the other aspects of hygiene, like the steps up to the stone slabs being stepped on, or me keeping plastic bottles that are empty. To their mind, my primary duty is to the eyes of those passing, and to their poking concerns about me. No. It isn't.

A lady who had often been gentle, who seems to fit the stereotype of an Ashkenaz gentle woman, spoke, today, about me living in squalour. Suggesting I should get to a homeless shelter, meaning a 24 / 24 shelter. There is one, to a high degree used by migrants from outside the EU, in the vicinity. People from it have been bothering me in the past. Basically suggesting that me saying "no thanks" to their services is a kind of self destructivity. On the contrary. Accepting to move in with them would be self destructive. Here is what we are talking about:

• a collective place with lots of noise
• many of them Orientals or Black Africans
• a fair portion of them being alcoholics
• a few years ago, there was a lice infestation there
• and a few years ago, perhaps before that, there was a Lithuanian who got murdered, presumably not by other East Europeans, but by someone from areas where Europeans can be regarded as ex-Colonisers or as Racist.

On top of that, all of it has to function tolerably despite of all this meaning there are supervisor who presumably have some kind of psychological, perhaps added to psychiatric training.

Such people would not be asking how well I do my job as a writer, which is totally outside their scope, they would be asking how well I fit in into the facility or how well I cooperate with their plans for my integration, which is a very disastrous priority for people exercising powers over me, given mine own. That's why they shouldn't exercise power over me.

On top of that, part of the issue is, there are people who believe in "continuity of care" when it comes to the homeless. There are people who believe that BECAUSE I've been homeless for long, I SHOULD pass through a halfway house of some sort before having my normal existence. To me such ideas is one of the reasons I even considered not backing Trump in last year's election. It's a kind of Communism. Housing first is a decent option even for people "with problems" as the saying goes, and definitely not a "luxury" or "special treatment" which would drain the resources of society to apply to all.

But in my case I'm not even proposing housing first. I'm proposing the plan of:

• getting paid for my work as a writer
• getting friends from my work as a writer
• paying my debts to the Swedish study loan system from my income as a writer
• paying rent from my income as a writer.

And here I think there are Jews who pretend I somehow got involved with Nazi ideology, though I'm actually an Austro-Fascist (no, it's not the same thing), or pretty much of one, at least a nostalgic one. There are Jews who pretend I'm a ueful idiot for Jew-haters, because I'm pro-Palestinian. There are Jews who think I betrayed a Jewish childhood faith, while my childhood faith was actually first Scientific and then Christian, and never exclusively Jewish. There are Jews who pretend they can accept me being Christian, but can't get over me being Catholic, or who pretend they can accept me being Catholic, but can't get over me being Trad.

I think they have for absurdly long hoped I would change, have supported me with that idea at the back of their mind, and obviously given an impression of me being much more directly involved in accepting their support than I was, so I lost on support from Trads, and who are now dropping me. And hoping Trads (who are ultimately probably likeliker than they to print what I wrote the past decades) won't be as quick picking me up as they are dropping me.

Meanwhile, Trads have been suspicious of me for reasons like:

• I'm known to be roughly speaking for the late Mgr. Williamson (who is a convert from Anglicanism, who to some is suspect of never having become a Catholic, who also allowed two priests to pass through who turned out to be vicious)
• like Williamson, I'm a fan of Tolkien and of C. S. Lewis (the latter never converted to the Catholic Church and some have imagined he's a relative of Lewis Carroll, or that his fandom for the latter proves more than he was an Englishman and grew up as an English boy)
• I'm pro-Ukraine and anti-Russian in cases of conflict, including the still ongoing war (a Swedish loyalty dating since Charles XII, and a Finnish one too)
• I refuse to buy some of the Russian propaganda that others are naive of (Ukrainian is a language about as far from Russian as Dutch from English or German, Finland was attacked by Stalin, and as they aren't Russians Finns definitely had other reasons than National Socialism to oppose him)
• I promote positions that Russian propaganda and French Conservative secularists have been painting as "Zionist Christian / Islamic" (Young Earth Creationism, Geocentrism, Biblical "Litteralism" on the doctrinal level, homeschooling, teen marriages, freedom to dress as one likes, including for but not limited to Muslims on the practical level)
• I promote a position shared by the late Williamson, and that Russian propaganda and French Conservative secularists have been painting as Scientology, namely opposition to modern psychiatry.

Obviously 18th C. psychiatry was more brutal, but it concerned lots fewer people. By now it has become a kind of Bastille, with lettres de cachet. Sure, in the case of Mary of Portugal and George III it was probably more political than medical, but back then, that was for heads of state. Or very important people. By now, it could very easily make someone feel more important than he is, because of the intense focus, and then turn around and consider his feeling of importance show's he needs psychiatry. The equivalent of constantly making someone angry and then using the anger to prove he needs the "amateur psychiatry" of the bullies.

And lots of people have some motive to bring them in. Muslims have found me congenial and would like to convert me ... except they've tried for since 2009, when I came to Paris. Some even believed I was in St. Nicolas du Chardonnet primarily for siding with Pied-Noirs (French-Algerians) and wondered why I took sides in a conflict that basically didn't concern me. Perhaps if Algerians were kind to me, I'd be Muslim instead? Well ... no. Protestants have felt encouraged to my fidelity to the Bible in defending Young Earth Creationism ... and feel puzzled when I think Catholic Mariology is Biblical and Protestantism isn't. Jews have heard exaggerated stories about the Jewishness of my early years, asked themselves what they did wrong, hoped to get a reaction like from the chess player Pope in one of their fairy tales ... but when this doesn't happen, they may, some of them, start to wonder what's wrong with me, instead. Some seem to think Christianity can only be kept up by a state of hypnosis (like when Sir Hiss hypnotised Richard the Lion-Heart to go on a Crusade in a Disney-fied version of Robin Hood) and when the stress level makes me eager to get some hypnosis just to not go nuts from stress, they imagine I need to be protected from that, if only, then perhaps I could ditch Christianity. Well ... no.

Plus, to some, getting me into the social role of a mental case (like a person people have to take responsibility for, since not taking his own responsibilities) obviously is a huge boon to whoever wants my online writings to stay out of print. In the past week, I had 204 page views from France, 356 from Russia, which has, shall we say, probably less freedom of speech and of media than France.

Hans Georg Lundahl
Paris
Maternity of the Blessed Virgin Mary
11.X.2025

Festum Maternitatis beatae Mariae Virginis.

PS, a tip for any homosexual male interested in me, if you heard I'm of your persuasion, someone lied to you or was very prejudiced about secondary matters when making his assessment. In other words, you are wasting your time if you are bona fide ... unless you are deliberately wasting mine./HGL

* They seem to be mostly dead, and getting out of scalp and skin, but extracting them means volume they filled needs filling either by my tissue or by lice tissue, and in either case, from my resources of matter and calories. This means, along with healing processes, that I can be extremely sleepy, more than usually.