Wednesday, 9 July 2025

I am Catholic


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Some people seem to think, or hope to make me think, things will become lots better if I cease to be a Catholic or at least cease to be so "traditional" or "narrowminded" or "exclusive" or (especially among Swedes) "dogmatic" ...

I have the impression 90 % of the Lutherans (who are now dwindling, only 53 % now) and about the same (80—95 %) of the Nones (technically 37.9 % of the population, but in practise many Lutherans would fall here) have been raised on Schleiermacher's or similar ideas that religious truth cannot be known, that religious dogma serves only a social purpose, that being "dogmatic" (i e believing the dogmas of a specific confession are factually truthful statements and do not contain error) is therefore a fault, a kind of mistake about categories.

But obviously, quite a few Muslims, Jews, probably Freemasons, hope I will at least not remain dogmatic. And some Evangelicals that I'll become so about their position, which (insofar as I knew it back then) was basically mine in part of my childhood, and which in my own case I count as an incomplete preparation for my Catholic faith.

Now, it would seem quite a few of these are engaged in what cult experts but also students of narcissism call "love bombing" — and I just learned the word "future faking" from a video.* Now, I'll not pretend everyone I'm dealing with is deliberately and knowingly future faking. Lots are basically in a position of either not realising their own potential if I continue to disappoint them (which I will if a change of heart is what they hope for) or not counting on my potential to resist their love bombing and (unconscious, let's hope) future faking.

My plan in 2005 was:

  • to stay faithful to a girl** or possibly get another if that one's out of reach;
  • to get if not rich at least well to do on income from my writings and compositions;
  • to do these as a Roman Catholic of a very dogmatic type.


My plan in 2025 is:

  • to stay faithful to a girl or possibly get another if that one's out of reach;
  • to get if not rich at least well to do on income from my writings and compositions;
  • to do these as a Roman Catholic of a very dogmatic type.


This is not what I have chosen because of love bombers or future fakers. It's also not sth which has been imposed by bullies.

There was not really all that much future faking at St. Nicholas du Chardonnet, and I left, second time, while this time staying in Paris, partly for theological reasons, but partly also because I noted that their ways of discouraging my online writing were really what they meant. A person X could perhaps "future fake" for a week or two, until making it obvious she was not in on the plan (despite her position as a student of "métiers du livre"*** making her in that way an ideal partner.

But I kept future faking to myself, hoping to get through there. Until one day I didn't. The theological reason was not a radical turning away from being Catholic or being Traddy, landing in Vatican in Exile is hardly a giant leap, since Pope Michael I was once a Seminarian at ... looking up, Armada, Michigan.° Run by the SSPX.

Recently in the news one man carried a name similar to one of the priests, yes, he was nephew of Revd. Régis de Cacqueray. And as the nephew was basically a National Socialist (not quite my thing), and as I have some Jewish ancestry and said so, this could possibly have contributed to the attitude. Or they could simply have been engaged in psychological judgementalism about "narcissists, attention seekers" and such ... perhaps even some more roots in moral theology, I would (but I'm biassed) say if so misapplied. Whatever such loyalties of Régis de Cacqueray may or may not have contributed, the parish has started seeing Revd. Robinson as their theological star on questions that were just as dear to me then as now, like Young Earth Creationism and Geocentrism.

Too bad.

But not quite as bad as making it every day clear I am well liked and even loved, except the days when the opposite is made clear, and this obviously NOT from the SSPX in any way shape or form, but from people around the place where I have my luggage.

There are different reasons why some men can't walk away from such situations. Not seeing through them is just one. Another one would be not being able to afford to walk away, I'm not sure. I am sure there are people I'd like with less diffidence if they were part of my plan instead of abusing my position as homeless to make part after part of it not work and when I turn to another part make that not work either and when I turn back to a part I had neglected for some time pretend I don't know what I want and so on.

Hans Georg Lundahl
Paris
Gorkum martyrs
9.VII.2025

* Tr*mp is "Future Faking" you. And you are falling for it
Parkrose Permaculture | 7 July 2025
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGOs90ZfzEo


** Girl, not old maid. Back in 2005, that would mean a millennial. Today it would mean Gen Z.
*** Meaning studying for becoming anything from Librarian to Publisher and with Bookseller in between, not forgetting bookbinding in decoration or restoration or libraries' preventing damage in advance, and not forgetting printing.

° David Bawden: The Kansas Man Who Claimed He Was The Catholic Church’s Real Pope Starting In 1990
By Kara Goldfarb | Edited By John Kuroski
Published June 28, 2018 | Updated April 21, 2025
https://allthatsinteresting.com/david-bawden


The update would involve changing to the past tense, since Pope Michael I died in 2022.

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